gut wrenching

"It's your identity that's lost, you'll never realize the cost. Twenty years from now sitting still you'll be all alone, looking up that hill." PMB

I don't even feel like talking about it.
The one thing that has always been a constant keeps changing. I miss the old school. I miss so much.
I already hyperventilated and panicked tonight. Yay for Morgan for understanding :-)

captn morgster: listenign to NYE 03
captn morgster: i dont remember ANY of it
galileo358: HA
galileo358: i am listening to 12-30-98
captn morgster: a great show
captn morgster: that was the movin' out one right?
captn morgster: oh wait that was 28th i think
galileo358: dammit i wish it was three years ago
galileo358: when tickets were 10 bucks or guest listed and they were playing somewhere within 200 miles 4 days a week
galileo358: i dont want to fucking grow up
captn morgster: hehehehe
captn morgster: tell me about it
galileo358: i need a fucking jet plane
galileo358: i need shows
galileo358: i need pmb shows
captn morgster: im as old as all my friends were then
captn morgster: and i feel fucking old
captn morgster: the 5 shows in 2 days i did
captn morgster: within 20 misn of my apartment
captn morgster: that was great
galileo358: they are my favorite band, i love the experience, pretty much everything in my life i can tie to them, and i cant even fucking see them
captn morgster: four fucking years ago
captn morgster: join the fucking boat
galileo358: like every week in college, it was a new show, new city
captn morgster: yep
galileo358: it was always the one thing that was stable in my life
captn morgster: now its "hmm i might fly here cuase i know someone there and can get the day off"
captn morgster: NYE this year
captn morgster: we will make up for it all
galileo358: this show is so fucking good
galileo358: southern cross
galileo358: straight curve
galileo358: me and julio
captn morgster: hahah
captn morgster: OLD school
galileo358: rememebr that shit?!